Wednesday, September 16, 2009

My first poem

My soul is lost in your shadow

I am lost in darkness

It’s very scary

Far and far all is dark

Like some silent moonless night

All My expressions are gone

My voice too is lost in your noise

My self is ashamed of itself

My heart refuses to beat

My soul is scorched like

The Sand punished in desert heat

I am washed in this darkness

Like some nasty rootless weed

And my thoughts are numb too

Like an eternal dormant seed

No one can be seen, no one can be heard

For miles and miles, all my life

I have walked alone, hoping for a ray

But life had given less than it has taken away

My hands reach for yours

Knowing you were never there

But, I am a human too

With feelings to share

I too have a heart that wants to live

Share joy with love endless to give

All our vows turned futile

All the love is gone

I am reduced to nothing

Being trapped in your exile

Scars and marks say my story

That I am lost in darkness

It’s very scary.

(PS : This is my first attempt towards writing a poem. This is about domestic abuse.)

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Scooby ( in sketch pen )

thats my fav cartoon character :)
I saw this pic printed on a tissue paper I got along with my corn cup...:)

Monday, September 7, 2009

my secong tag :)

I am tagged again, this time by friend Gayathri AND Rammy :D ... thanks dears, it was a really a nice tag, serious but good fun.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4 – he gave me a mischievous half smile. " are you ready to relive the millennium"-- its a copy of 'the celestine prophesy' by James Redfield

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & catch air? – corner of my bed

3. last thing you watched on TV? – star news showing news on Jaswant Singh

4. Current time 8:15 PM

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 8:13 PM

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? – 2 or 3 dogs are barking / crying outside

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? –yesterday night while calling my friend I was strolling outside

8. Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at?- hehe! I was chatting with the person who tagged me

9. What are you wearing?- A night suit with green and white stripes

10. When did you last laugh? –some half an hour ago, I saw a news channel showing some silly video.

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in? – Many things: plugs, framed pics, bookracks etc

12. Seen anything weird lately? – yup! I saw a lady giving two mute kids (talking in sign language in a busy market) dirty looks repeatedly as if they were committing a crime and also a bunch of hooligans laughing at those kids.such things hurt :( . I seriously felt like giving all of them a tight one across their faces.

13. What do you think of this quiz? Good insights about myself haha! And of course gr8! Time pass!!

14. What is the last film you saw? I am not much into movies; last movie I saw was 'shortcut'. its was a pure nonsense esp after the second half and It drove me crazy!!

15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?-All the orphanages being run in filthy conditions by corrupt managers.

16. Tell me something about you that I dunno!- I hate plucking flowers and people who do this of course.

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? - I would hang eve teasers and molesters

18. Do you like to Dance? – yes

19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?- haven’t thought that far

20. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?- haven’t thought that far

21. Would you ever consider living abroad? –No

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? – Good, I am glad my child u have still maintained that clean soul I sent u with ….

I wish to tag :)

joie de vivre

Pink teddy


Saturday, September 5, 2009

Happy 'teachers' day !!

Today is teachers’ day and I wish to speak my mind, one thought that has been popping up in my mind for some time. I feel there are basically two types of teachers: type one, whose level of teaching may be good or average but their level of ethics and morals is very high. You can look up to them and see a guiding star. You are deeply affected by their goodness and somewhere start idolizing them.

The type two are those whose teaching may be good or even the very best but they have virtually no ethical code and are sort of unscrupulous beings. These are foul mouthed, show their importance all the time and misuse (read enjoy) their power as much as they can.

I would rather consider it an opportunity that I saw the two types in juxtaposition. We had one of the teachers of the type two, who would keep us waiting outside his office for long time just to make one petty announcement, fiddle with marks, favor his chosen few, crack jokes crossing the limits of decency and then scold us for not laughing (eww! strange but true), would insult us over our (so called) ‘mistakes’ and devised new ways of inflicting mental torture,. The list is endless. Although I, rather we (the entire class) had to bear with a cynical teacher but you value light because you know what darkness is. I would have never seen the goodness and values of one such teacher had the other been not so very devilish.

There was another teacher, the type one, who was really worth calling teacher and was gentle and caring. He would always be available for any help, went of his way to help and would make the class less stressing. Students could count on him for help in any moment of distress and that confidence of pupils in him was his real worth and wealth.

I feel it’s not just the academic gyaan, but a lot of virtues and character that a student imbibes from a teacher. The type two people, I feel, should not enter a sacred profession like teaching. Even now, mere thought of such teachers fills our hearts with hatred and a frown comes unintentionally. The other ones we all still love calling ‘sir’ again and again.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Pati patni aur ‘woh’

Recently, while flipping through the pages of a women’s magazine, I read about a different category of ladies called as ‘home breakers’/ ‘man-eaters’, etc. These are sultry, intelligent and shrewd women, usually unmarried or divorced, who target rich and successful married men. As per the definition these ladies are ‘woh’ in a normal and happy pati-patni scene. I heard media accusing actress Shilpa Shetty of breaking a UK based businessman Raj Kundhara’s marriage, of yesteryears’ actress Sri Devi breaking producer Boney Kapoor’s happy home, of actress Sangeeta Bijlani being a ‘woh’ in cricketer Azharuddin’s happy household. And more recently, of actress Rani Mukherjee playing a ‘woh’ in Aditya Chopra’s life (btw Aditya Chopra has separated from his wife Payal) and if media is to be believed, Mukherjee is solely responsible for this marital disaster.

There is no dearth of such cases and I do not intend to count them over here but my point is- is ‘that’ woman the only one responsible? Is that married man an innocent child? If that woman, the ‘woh’ is responsible for barging into a happy household and is capable enough of shattering it, the man of the household is also equally responsible of letting his home break. Rather, he is the one who allows that ‘woh’ an entry into his life much to the discomfort of his partner (wife). He is the one who gets more interested in the ‘woh’ and succumbs to her charm, the one who decides to seek divorce from his lawfully married wife without any compunctions about leaving her and his own kids for a seductress.

Media and society tag such ladies with all sorts of nasty names, degrade them down to the lowest possible level and what not. Although this impact is much less in case of celebrities as obviously society bows down to the power and fame, but it is there and can be visibly seen. I do not say that such ladies are fictional characters; they do exist and are experts at seducing their chosen prey but there is a big bad world out there, and meeting such people is inevitable. One cannot blame an outsider for breaking his home. It’s not the power of seduction of an outside force but actually the cracks inside a relationship that lead to its complete crash. If any of the partners is weak or there is a lack of trust, their relationship needs but a little tremor to fall apart. People out there are not angels to let such opportunities go and give you a free counseling session as well. Rather, they are waiting and ready to pounce at the first chance or the most subtle hint. Finally, it’s the couple who call it quits and no one else.

Shilpa Shetty is blessed with a shrewd business brain. And on top of that a multi millionaire like Raj Kundhara is begging her all day and night for marriage. Leaving him (a golden opportunity) just because he has a wife and on all the ethical and moral blah blah definitely is not what at least Shetty can be expected to do (esp. after her Big brother drama). In such a case (s) I differ from the usual opinion and I find all Kundharas and not Shettys more deserving of the tag of a home breaker.

(PS: If you have seen the movie ‘Ankahee’ by Vikram Bhatt, u’ll get the point)